August 31, 2004

It's A Sickness

I watch too much TV. Don't believe me? Here is a list of shows I watch regularly:

- American Dreams
- Alias
- CSI (The original and the BEST)
- ER
- Las Vegas
- Law & Order SVU
- One Tree Hill (shutup)
- Survivor
- Smallville
- The Apprentice
- Without A Trace

And I don't even have cable. Plus there's the new shows that I want to watch:

- Lost
- Jack & Bobby
- Hawaii (Saw it, wasn't impressed)
- Medical Investigation

Thank goodness I have a spiffy video card that is hooked up the the cable, so I can record anything I want and watch it later (and fast forward through commercials). Otherwise... well I'd rather not think about that sad possibility.

I should have Tivo.

August 29, 2004

Pants On Fire

Ok, so I lied. I probably won't be getting my Blogroll up for a little bit longer. It's not that I am avoiding it, it's just that if I am going to put my Blogroll up, I want to have everything else up at the same time. (Blogsnob code, 'Currently' section, non-blog links, etc.) I'm weird like that, if I am going to do something I want to do it in its' entirety the first time.

I'm not a 'rough draft' type of person. Remember when you had to write essays for school, and the teacher always required you to turn in a rough draft or outline? Yeah, I don't think I have ever turned in one of those in my entire life. I suppose I'm a 'get it right the first time, every time' type of person. Maybe that why I have such a hard time starting big projects, for the fear of not being able to get it all done at once. Or, having to go back and re-do something that wasn't up to standards the first time. I suppose I am my own worst critic.

August 28, 2004

Sharp Pointy Things

So, I was watching the Olympics a while ago, more specifically I was watching the javelin toss. Extremely strong athletes throwing a sharp, pointy stick through the air... seems like someone's bound to get impaled at some point. And you know who it would be? The freakin' judges! I watch in disbelief as javelins land mere feet from the judges, and they make no move to get out of the way. Not even a sidestep!

I would think that if there was someone hurling sharp sticks in my direction, I'd be more inclined to keep my distance until after the point is in the ground. I certainly wouldn't wait around for an errant breeze to send that javelin soaring towards my body, you would find me sitting well out of impalement range.

August 26, 2004


Note to self: No matter how bad your head hurts, Excedrin does not make a good breakfast.


August 24, 2004

Isn't That Interesting?

My quiz results:

eXpressive: 9/10
Practical: 1/10
Physical: 6/10
Giver: 8/10

You are a XSYG --Expressive Sentimental Physical Giver. This makes you a Sex Bomb.

You are sexy sex sex sex! The sexness! You are the sexiest, hottest and most charismatic of all types. You are a captivating speaker and a great dinner date -- relaxed, self-effacing, charming and generous. Your type probably has origins in something sad -- trying to keep the peace in a tough family situation, or an early heartbreak -- and you'll probably want to address and resolve that at some point, but in your relationships that heartache is pure gold!

You lie effortlessly -- not necessarily a bad thing. You can have problems with fidelity. You need frequent praise and validation, and in seeking it you can make decisions that aren't consistent with your general good judgment. In other words, don't cheat on your significant other just because someone is paying attention to you.

You strongly dislike conflict, and will avoid it. Like an XPYG, you give so much of yourself to your partner that you feel dismissed and unappreciated if you don't get the same in return. But you internalize your feelings more and have a hard time getting over them. You don't *want* to cheat -- you just keep finding yourself in vulnerable situations. But you'll stay with your partner in the long run from guilt and a desire to please.

Your sex life will always be hot. You are one of the rare people who can keep the fires of passion going forever -- if you find a good match. Find another XSYG and you will never need (or want) anyone else again.

Of the 1846 people who have taken this quiz, 12.2 % are this type.

... I plead the 5th.

August 20, 2004


Just a quick note to those of you who have me linked, and anyone that I previously had linked:

I will be getting my blogroll up, but I have to say that it probably won't be until sometime next week. I have saved the code from my old template, so everyone that I had listed there will be back, plus a few new folks.

Slowly but surely, things will get back to normal. :)

Jump Right In

My favorite Olympic sport this year? That would have to be swimming. And not just for the obvious reasons. Although, seeing a my preferred type of guy walking around in a swim suit is never an unwelcome sight. Mmmm...

What was I talking about? Oh right, the Olympics.

There are three events in the Olympics that I make a distinct point to watch:

  • Swimming: When I watch the swimmers compete, I can't help but be transfixed by the way they slide through the water. The way they appear so strong and powerful, but also completely graceful. It's beautiful. Swimmers are the only athletes that I would ever envy.
  • Gymnastics: Both men's and women's. The main draw for me, is that I am so throughly amazed by the way they jump, twist, swing, tumble, flip, balance and fly. I have a hard time believe that mere mortals are capable of such feats.
  • Diving: (10 meter platform is the best) Much like the gymnasts, I love the way divers can move. In such a small amount of time they can complete a number of acrobatics before sliding into the water with barely a splash. It's just wonderful to watch. Plus, I love how the camera runs parallel to the divers and follows them underwater. I don't know why, it just looks cool.

Also, the Summer games beat the Winter games, no contest.

August 17, 2004

Shiny and New

So, it's a new template. Hopefully the beginning of a whole new blog for me. I originally started this blog with the hopes of anonymous release, being able to describe the thoughts and feelings I wasn't comfortable sharing with those I know in real life. Over time, I began to censor myself more and more, as my paranoia got the best of me. I was terrified that someone I know (read: the boyfriend) would wander across the site and read everything that I never wanted him to know.

And so I wrote about the unimportant things that I experienced every day, and blogging became a chore. It became "What can I write about today without revealing too much real emotion or feeling?" Gradually things began to clutter themselves within my head, a great turmoil of emotions and issues kept buried beneath a quiet exterior. As we all know, one can only hold such things in for so long, before little cracks and fractures begin to appear in that cleverly crafted facade.

Needless to say it wasn't long before the damn broke. Oh boy did it break. Which is about all I have to say about that, for now.

But now I'm back, with a whole new outlook on things. Which is why things around here are going to change a bit. As much as I love (LOVE!!!) the image that Ryn created for me, I was ready for a new view. I'm nowhere near done, there is much customization and tweaking to work on, which I will work on as my time permits.

For now, I've at least gotten things started. In more ways that one. :)

August 11, 2004

Calm After the Storm?

Things are working themselves out.

I'll be back soon. :)

August 06, 2004


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August 02, 2004


Real life has become so tangled for me.

Powerful emotions flood through my head.

I can't remember the last time I felt this overwhelmed.

No one to talk to.

No one that can help.

I don't think I can do this anymore.