February 28, 2005


Taking a bit of a break. Back soonly.

February 18, 2005

It's Not You, It's Me

For some reason, I haven't felt like writing lately. Which is ridiculous, because I have all sorts of things going on at the moment.

For starters, I'm beginning a new job on the 28th, which means I am leaving my old job. Which makes me a bit sad, because the people I work for are really sweet, wonderful people. Although, I can't say that I am going to miss the people that I work with, mostly because I despise them greatly.

Then there's the ever-continuing ups and downs of my Mom's health, which causes me such enormous amounts of stress that you would think I'd write just to be able to vent. But I don't write about it, and I don't even talk about it to anyone. Now, I know that bottling up that kind of emotion isn't exactly beneficial to one's mental health, but I've been suppressing emotions for 22 years and I'm not crazy yet.

Another recent series of events seems to have set some things into motion, I'm not sure how it's going to turn out yet. However I definitely will not be talking about that because, quite honestly, I don't need to be judged. Thus ends the discussion about that.

So you see, it's not that I don't have anything to write about. I guess I'm just no in much of a 'sharing' mood these days. But knowing my weird moods, I'll probably be writing up a storm by this time next week. C'est la vie.

February 14, 2005


February 13, 2005


Happiness is...

- Waking up and feeling well-rested for the first time in weeks.
- Seeing the sun shining through your window.
- A sleeping cat curled up on your tummy.
- Taking a shower and not running out of hot water.
- Singing and dancing to crappy pop songs on the radio.

And that was all before noon!

February 09, 2005


Mom had another surgery, all went well. She probably won't be released until friday, but she's is doing fine.

Between my Mom's wavering health and my own financial situation, I've been so stressed out that my head feels like it's going to explode. I need to de-stress, but I just can't seem to find anything that works.

Edit: Mom has been released early, and is resting comfortably at home. :)

February 04, 2005

I'm Tired

Mom had surgery today, and thankfully all went well. My Brother, his girlfriend, and I went to visit her while she was in recovery, but she was pretty doped up and drifting in and out of consciousness. Eventually the nurses increased her dose and she was out like a light. So, I headed home (after a quick dinner cooked by my Brother's wonderful girlfriend).

Back to the hospital tomorrow morning.

February 02, 2005


Mom's back in the hospital. The ICU this time, undergoing a blood transfusion. She lost blood because of an internal bleed of sorts. That's not exactly what it was, but I'll spare you the TMI.

I want to go visit her, but I've got to work tomorrow and there's no one to cover my shift. So I'll be heading out there after work, which means I get to worry myself sick while I pretend that I'm working.

All I really want to do is curl up and cry, but I can't. Everyone's home, and the last thing I want is to be asked a bunch of questions. Is everything alright? Is your Mom okay? Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it? Let's see... No, no, no, and no.